” Yeah I did, because you are right, I don’t deserve you, I deserve someone better. And you will never ever ever be that person.”
And so, it happens.
Yeah i miss you, so what? The feelings I had for you was never the problem. It’s the feeling you DIDN’T have for me, thats the problem. :(
It must suck for the girl who has so much to say, yet she made everyone who would listen deaf, from all her Bullshit.
My heart is telling me that I really miss you. But my brain is warning me that I’m too clingy.. but my would is telling me that I can’t go on living without you.. which proves a point. Logical ideas may be correct, but my spiritual and emotional ideas make me happy. I’ve come to a point in my life where the one thing that’s my constantly driving me might all be JUST a dream.. that maybe we’re causing ourselves more harm than good.. that maybe, just maybe, we’ll never be more than what we are now.. but them I stop myself. I stop myself and look in the mirror. I ask where has all my optimism gone, where has all the goodness in my world. The impeccable eyes and emmaculate smile, where has it all gone? I take a good look at myself and realize.. I don’t need to try to keep myself happy, there’s no need to try convince myself that I am all amazing. I have you, a goddess walking the earth, a flower of beauty and compassion in this world of shit. :p a constant reminder that all I can ever wish for, is in you. I’ve been blessed with you, I don’t see it, and you prolly don’t see it.. but it must be there. It’s gotta be there. We’ve gone through some crazy stuff, you and I. We’ve been worn down, battered, confused, abused and beat up by the concept of “Love”, even betrayed.. But all I know is that through all of this, I’m Mario Garcia, and ill be there for you through the very end.. the sun and the moon, dancing around the sky, completely opposite of one another.. yet you cant have one without the other. love and heartbreak go hand and hand, a cycle of life. One I intend to break the day I ask to marry you.
